After all of the traumatizing events that had been happening to the Philippines, I woke up one morning at 4 a.m. and was just completely depressed. I started thinking about "what ifs" and these thoughts progressed to me as someone who is living a life I just borrowed from God. I know that I'm too young to reflect on the years I have lived, asking if I had ever been productive enough but hey, age doesn't matter right? Nobody even knows how much time one has left in this world. Midlife crisis? Emo much? Not really. Just reality. I started thinking about my future and the people surrounding me. Before I physically leave, (scary thought but hey, let's just face it... ) I know that I have a lot of things that I want to say (and do) to everyone I know but I would love to organize everything first.
Out of depression, I decided to go to a bookstore and there it was--the book that I once ignored was now something that completely pulled me towards it, making me buy and bring it home. What's the book?
It's not a book as in storybook-book. It's more of an autograph book that guides you in things you would like to open up before you even leave this world. I can't fill up everything right now since there are questions regarding one's spouse and children so I think I'll save those blanks for 8 or 9 years more. Anyway, it's not like I want to leave already. It's just more of being organized and planning ahead? Lol. Hey, it's worth it. We have to face the reality one way or another...
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Nice! Lately naisip din ako ng what if im gone, tapos nalungkot ako bigla, pero narelieved din agad.
ReplyDeleteAyos yang book na yan. I'll check it too!
hi chyng :) oo nga e... mapapareflect ka talaga haha...
ReplyDeletehaha sige go check it :D
it really is a unique feeling when we reflect on our lives. parang rollercoaster of emotions. pero ang mahalaga, marealize natin ang mga blessings natin everyday.
ReplyDeleterakenrowl!
You're starting to creep me out! When is your birthday? I have a feeling that it's a little related to that. Parang you're reading my mind. I will check that book, I might get two. I'll have for myself and the other one, I plan to give it as an 18th birthday present for my BF's sister. May pagka-symbolic sya.Ü
ReplyDeletesan ka nakabili nyan?
ReplyDeletemanik - totally agree! woot!
ReplyDeleteruss - my bday's on feb 11? haha... why? ngapala...i dunno but i have a feeling na we're thinking about the same stuff? i just visited your blog and i was like -- whaaaat ? haha you're in your midlife crisis too? haha! go ahead and check the book out... :) ako naman i'm planning to buy one for my dad because he's been composing something regarding his life (one of the reasons why i bought one for myself) so that he can share to me the stuff he wasn't able to disclose (kahit anak tayo, we still don't know eveything about our parents db haha) kasi ibibigay nia toh bago raw siya mamatay. memoirs niya raw. aun... :) that's a good gift book so yay for your bf's sister! :D it's in the SELF-HELP/PSYCHOLOGY section of Powerbooks or National Bookstore. :)
jeck - SELF-HELP/PSYCHOLOGY SECTION of powerbooks/national bookstore :) midlyf crisis na rin ba? haha
I might just check this out too... I think I'm on the verge of a quarter-life crisis.
ReplyDeletenina - aww... this will somehow uplift u... i promise :D
ReplyDeletehindi. feeling ko malapit na akong mamatay. hahahah!
ReplyDeleteSounds great. Maybe I would be haunting for that book to. A sort of offline diary about what I wanted to say but failed to say when I was still alive :D
ReplyDeletewe live in this physical world only temporarily...what matters is the eternal afterlife and where we'll be spending it.
ReplyDeleteit is for us to decide right NOW. malay natin dba? :)
jeck - hahaha waaaaaaaaaaaaaag
ReplyDeletemadz - yes... un nga rin goal ko e hahaha... not enough time to say and do everything due to the never ending new thoughts so db at least some would be written for archive (lalo na kung d na magagawa or masasabi ever due to certain circumstances). aun e o. haha
chie - super. :) for now, let's enjoy what we currently have in life knowing that someday, we'll be off somewhere better. :)
sort of like a bucket list? I've been meaning to create one too :)
ReplyDeletesorbetera - there's a part that's somehow like that but it's more of an autobiography and thoughts u'd like to share to people before u die... :)
ReplyDeleteDon't feel sad. Hope today you are happier. Sandra
ReplyDeleteSandra- Yes I am... Thanks so much! :)
ReplyDeletei want to have one! (yung book po!)
ReplyDeletebefore i was ready to die..i'm still ready parin ngayon...
before kasi iba ang motive ko..pero i thank God for waking me up...
@ iya -- nagulantang naman ako sa sinabi mo hehe it's good na ready ka na rin and buti naman hindi na iba ung motibo mo... :) it's good that you're thankful kay God
ReplyDeletethankx for the post...makes me want to buy the book...hehe...^_^
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